Saturday, November 21, 2009
Days haven't been so bright these few days.
In reality and emotionally. Argued several times with G this week already.
Although it seems as though we feel more for each other after,
it's only a perceived image. Cause somehow, you do not feel the same.
I'm trying hard, I'm really doing my best.
Though that perfect image of me has already been shattered,
and that the pieces would still have cracks,
I still aim to fix back this image to the best of my ability.
Today was orientation training. Initially was quite exciting for me,
but without knowing why, I felt sianed of it already.
Probably because of the long hours, and I do not exactly know many people.
Although thess does not have a direct impact on me, I feel so hurt directly.
On top of your grad night stuff, you take on orientation "house hero",
student forum, and many other stuff, making you so stressed and all.
I really feel so useless, not being able to be there to help you,
having to work so hard with your councillors at your house till night time,
while here I am at home bumming around.
I don't deny that I feel a little neglected because of your council,
but I feel even worse when I think I'm neglected or start sulking,
because you are working your ass out so hard, while here I am complaining.
I want to lighten your workload as much as possible, as far as I can.
I don't need any recognition, reward, praises or tangible items,
I just need you to accept my help and your appreciation to motivate myself..
I'm sure we can get past this together,
jiayou all the way, you have a man behind this successful woman literally!
12:18 AM
..Love never fails to end with a teardrop__*
